Ziggy Ramo - Pretty Ugly

I look, pr-pretty uglyI look, nice and disgustingI look, g-good for nothingI don't like the way I'm lookingI look, pr-pretty uglyI look, nice and disgustingI look, g-good for nothingI don't like the way I treat myselfI don't see the way you see meI ain't even aware of my own realityI'm looking in the mirror, I rarely feel prettyTo busy giving time to negativityDistorted image of my body, I probablyNever gonna find somebody that want for realHow the fuck I sposed to heal?I don't know how to dealWith the fact I hate the way I lookI ain't sposed to feel this illI held it till it spill overMy mother on the first flight when death came closerSitting in the hospital, doctors looking at meAsking if I see the future, well not reallyDamn, cause that's hard to acceptWhen you making peace with never taking another breathWhen your self image is a disgusting silhouetteEvery compliment you get becomes a threatI look, pr-pretty uglyI look, nice and disgustingI look, g-good for nothingI don't like the way I'm lookingI look, pr-pretty uglyI look, nice and disgustingI look, g-good for nothingI don't like the way I treat myself, myselfI know it's not too good for my health, my healthCause I don't like the way it's feelingIt's hard if we don't ever talk about itThat why I had to right this song about itFeeling like a freak, is it only me?No other man talk about it, so it must beBut fuck gender, we all humanI'm floating on this spectrum feeling so confused andI don't wanna keep this shit to myselfI know I'm not the only man who hated himselfWe don't talk about it, we just kill ourselvesOr take it out on women, cause we don't get the helpBut be honest, I swear this shit is toxicMasculinity so fragile we hiding in the closet, ironicAnd it's hard to acceptWhen your genders entrenched in a negative effectWhen your self image is a disgusting silhouetteEvery single thought we don't regret becomes a threatI look, pr-pretty uglyI look, nice and disgustingI look, g-good for nothingI don't like the way I'm lookingI look, pr-pretty uglyI look, nice and disgustingI look, g-good for nothingI don't like the way I treat myself, myselfI know it's not too good for my health, my healthCause I don't like the way I treat myself, myselfI know it's not too good for my health, my healthCause I don't like the way it's feelingOh no, oh no, oh noOh no, oh no, oh noI don't like the way I treat myself, myselfI know it's not too good for my health, my healthCause I don't like the way I treat myself, myselfI know it's not too good for my health, my healthCause I don't like the way I treat myself, myselfI know it's not too good for my health, my healthCause I don't like the way it's feeling